Now

/now — a page that tells you what this person is focused on at this point in their life. (nownownow.com)

🫀 properly immersing myself into the erotic for my research – Anne Carson, Hanne De Jaegher, Laura Candiotto and Andreas Weber are my main guides at the moment
🤒 finally noticing (or admitting to myself) that the state of the world has an impact on my mental wellbeing – which is simultaneously freeing and terrifying
🟩 given several lectures and presentations recently, with a few more on the programme. On sympoiesis, on eros, on posthumanism and ecofeminism, and on mono- and amatonormativity. This is lots of fun!
🔥 I fucking hate these heatwaves
🚮 I fucking hate 'AI'
🇺🇸 I fucking hate the purity culture that's coming over from the US – making young people excessively prudish and phobic of naughty words
🏙️ I need to leave Antwerp. Somehow. It's too big, too crowded, too concrete, too polluted, too toxic (materially and socio-politically). The problem is that I've come to like the people here…
🐻 very appreciative of the digital stability I've been finding as of late: Mastodon, Bear Blog, Arch Linux with Xfce – they're all utterly reliable and I love them for it
🇵🇸 free Palestine and fuck police repression ✌️

🫀 my so-called 'rabbit hole' (see previous update) has officially been inaugurated into my PhD research: my aim is now to develop an ecological philosophy that starts from the erotic
🔻 worried immensely about the rising tide of fascism, and increasingly concerned with ways of countering, sabotaging, and plainly surviving it (collectively, not merely individually)
⁉️ strongly feeling the need to integrate my academic and antifascist/activist commitments, not really knowing how
🖕🏻 my passionate hatred for so-called 'AI' is still growing, somehow
🇫 feeling ever more grateful to be on the Fediverse and not on fascist billionaire-run social media
📖 currently reading: Always Coming Home by Ursula Le Guin (↗)

🎓 currently working on my PhD in philosophy, being quite lost and sometimes enjoying it, sometimes dreading it
🫂 in a bit of a rabbit hole on intimacy, nonmonogamy, and the erotic (I tell people to read Audre Lorde's Uses of the Erotic on a daily basis.)
💞 learning a lot about myself and relationships by pursuing nonmonogamy (I feel like I've moved past the initial wave of difficulty and I now feel very stable and happy with my relationships – platonic and otherwise.)
🖕🏻 still hating AI with a passion
✊🏻 thinking a lot about how I can make activism and resistance a more regular part of my life