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cornix

2026-09-04T04:21:44+02:00

cornix

This assembled keyboard just arrived through the post. It's called CORNIX LP. To be honest, I have a "corne" keyboard kit to be assembled for many years waiting for me to find time and dedication to tackle it, but, well, I just didn't. It's not that I sat empty handed being bored. Anyway, the other day I came across this offer online, and, apart from the fact that it is already assembled, it's also wireless. That just pushed me over.

And now it's here and it is very hard to type on it - I mean, it's very tactile and silent, very beautiful, with a nice weight to it and all. But muscle memory just doesn't exist. My finger are clueless what is under them.

It came with very dark low-profile keycaps. I want to use them. You can't really see the letters on them unless with a lot of light. I like that. It's been a very sexy attractive thing even when I saw 'happy hacking keyboard' with blank profiles. Stuff for... well, hackers, I guess. But I also ordered a surprise set of keycaps, and it's this style... of I don't know, they might be done with inspiration from Apple. Maybe not, I don't really know. So I changed them (most of them), so that I can see the keys. It's for the time of learning. Once I'll become good and it will become my main keyboard, I will switch them back to the dark, lower ones.

So here we are. With so much on my plate (again), and I want to dedicate time to start learning and using a new keyboard with different layout. Not very rational direction of thinking. Also, did I mention I want to move away from QWERTY layout? No? Well, yes. I'm looking at Workman layout. That takes even more time to learn to type on it properly. I want to be very fast typer. Touch typist. So I can livecode really fast. And with changing the layout comes also customization in a million different apps. Emacs. SuperCollider in emacs (scel). i3 window manager. Movement in console. Also such a keyboard-centric setup probably calls for keyboard navigation plugin for the browser. And how to fix things regarding the mouse? My laptop does have touch-screen, so that helps a bit, but not too much!

Call me cr..., well, definitely not normal!

Thanks for reading. Did/do you have an experience of using a different layout (like colemak, dvorak, programmer, or workman) or significantly different (non-staggered?) keyboard layout? I'd love to hear your experience.

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the meaning of blog

2026-08-08T17:12:47+02:00

the meaning of blog

( blaugust #2, 8. August, 2026 )

Not too long ago, few months perhaps, I was wondering about an event that happened almost 25 years ago - my first public performance of computer music so to say. It is significant only to me, but also because at the time i was... people would say "out of my comfort zone", but in reality I was a student, surviving one of the biggest cities of the world, soaking in a lot of new influences and hard realities, learning digital artist's tools, and more. In retrospect, I was fortunate to have witnessed some inspirational people and events that shaped my further work. But these days, when I was trying to bring back those memories, exact places and dates, one thing helped me tremendously: an web.archive.org snapshop of my blog from the time.

You see, my relationship with web-logging, online journaling, etc, goes back to before the blogger days. It was before the web 2.0, today I know (as I researched it in last few years for #BeYourOwnPlatform project) Darcy DiNucci wrote about Web 2.0 in an article 'Fragmented Future' for Print Magazine back in 1999 (the term was popularized five years later). I was deep into using internet at the time, slowly learning HTML and such, starting my own webserver (thank Ljudmila.org!) and came across this thing called Blogger by Pyra Labs (it was later acquired by Google) and somebody using it at saturn.org (yes, it was Jack Saturn) and the way it was designed influenced me immensely. I got tired of having fights with Macromedia Dreamweaver, learned html, and also learned a bit of PHP, which was a language for my first project: my own blogging engine - 'tsocode' that was running my blog called 'tsotso.org'. Some friends even used it for a while (Adam Zbiejczuk and Potiho for example).

My blogging rarely took form of longer articles but were rather smol fragments, sometimes a longer paragraph, but nothing more. Sometimes I cought a glimpse of some kind of my own voice... poetic, slightly hermetic, like glimpses into unknown landscape. I wrote that nicely didn't I?

But often I would also get into something pretty close to journaling, a log-book if you like (that's why I never wrote that it's a 'blog' but I rather called it 'logging the life'), and that's where I wrote about events in London which helped me reconstruct this personal history in London in 2002: I saw playing Slub (with Alex McLean) in the public-lavatory-converted-venue called Public Life on an event 'Plug and Play'. I later saw on some public list an invitation to apply, well, reather write down one's name, an open mic type of event, but for 'people doing strange things with electricity' (let me know if you know the reference), and this is how I played my first mess of a Pure Data patch at Public Life. (side note: I didn't know at the time what kind of philosophy was behind that venue, and also the meaning of the opening up events in this way, but I have a feeling there's a strong connection or correlation between implicit attitudes that were present there, and today's 'live coding' and algorave scenes.)

My history of blogging (or logging-the-life) is, materially looking, extremely fragmented. I kept changing the sofware and domains: drupal, wordpress, wikiTavi, and more.. I have most of the databases somewhere, and some of the sites are on archive.org, so all the posts can be dug up and reconstructed, but I need time (which I don't have much). And I would like to resurect this history of my publishing on the internet. I hope I can do it on prin.lu with some form of flat file system - ideally in markdown files, so regardless of the software, everything is still there, stored in text files neatly organized in folders.

This all makes a lot of sense in light of smolweb and IndieWeb (revolution? or at least micromovement). The desire is there, as we move away from enshittified platforms, recognising the life-sucking machinery behind the BigTech and all its minions all powered by greed and extractive capitalism that makes our planet burn. Many threads lead from here, but let this be enough for today.

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blaugust 2026

2026-08-02T00:32:49+02:00

blaugust 2026 #1

(01. August, 2026)

Via my RSS reader News - an app on nextcloud for RSS; on my BOOX eInk reader - I was reading a post from Brennan and he mentions something I have not heard about before - Blaugust - a kind of monthly pact to write blog posts for the month of August (duh). It has a kind vibe, where writing 5 posts in that month already gets your a 'bronze award'. I've decided to write some, but perhaps already from the get go, I'm afraid to actually publish here every day, it just feels I'm suddenly dumping too much on my readers (whoever you are!) just for the sake of it. So I think I will just try to feel it... If it's going to be every day it's going to be every day. Otherwise not.

See

nerdgirlthoughts.game.blog (where you can also 'register')
brennan.day

My month will be somehow packed. I mean... from some perspective not. I'm planning to go more or less off-grid, although not really 100%. I'm having (some say 'well deserved') vacation/holiday for two thirds of the month on a lovely place on a Croatian island. It's a so-called Robinson Crusoe type of accommodation but there is internet. I'll just try really hard to not hang on a computer for too much. I already have a computer music project that I will work on for some hours, and perhaps reporting from that can be something interesting to write about. The last third of August will get quickly busy with all kinds of stage work and organizing etc. So...

I was thinking to brainstorm here, what I can write about in this month:

I like writing weeknotes. they are fun little tidbits. write weeknotes. write about weeknotes and why they feel fun and where's inspiration coming from.
progress and various thoughts while I work on 'trans.fail/mod_abv' performance
current state and plans for engine running prin.lu (quite techy) - i would really like to convert to some form of completely static content, most probably write my own little thing in ... dunno, PHP? Go? Rust? BASH?
gender non-conforming expression and some adjacent feels - body, sexuality, trans*ness... there are some historic points that I was figuring out lately - for example what role did Michael Jackson's BAD and Prince's Lovesexy albums play in my sexual awakening, and more...
artistic research I'm looking into - there's an MA that I want to continue towards which is taking flinta communities in live coding as its core interest, but in terms of PhD research project, perhaps what I seem to be interested in the most is "composing computer music and techno-politics of solidarity". this covers a lot - and so much in-between... sovereignty... but at this moment, this seems like close enough to what could frame such a research like PhD...
explainers on audio production of specific tracks, including the last Kamizdat release - the Access Frame: Performativity compilation... maybe also about the design I created for it.
why Creative Commons still matters? my thoughts on copyright... perhaps a bit about role of AI in this.
my (fediverse) thoughts on Mastodon versus GoToSocial and how's it going with administration of GoToSocial on YUNOHOST
brainstorming on writing - writing blog posts, writing more academic papers - and reading too?
photodumps with commentary...
audio snippets from audio work...
reflections on being a caretaker to a parent

Here's a photo from some outfit experiments the other day. Out of five wigs only one had a decent quality and size. Notice punkish earings too.

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weeknote 26.02

2026-06-27T15:13:45+02:00

weeknote #26.02

Saturday, 27. Jun, 2026

I played a newly conceptualized live computer sound performance which is titled: "prince lucija: QUANTEAR 07EA". It's purposefully conceptualized as a live improvisation and collage of current and recent material that I've created for either stage art (contemporary theatre/dance)- live coded or hybrid. I played this on two Kamizdat Rentgen events, one of them on the NiANSA Gathering festival which was really lovely - clearly made with a lot of heart. Not much response from audience really although I'm sure there were some who listened attentively. The second occasion to play was another Kamizdat Rentgen just a few days later in Ljubljana, where I shared the stage with Babilonska (Zagreb,.hr) and Palmovka (Budapest, and Prague,.cz). There was also very interesting round table before it, with some more guests and the discussion was revolving around communities. It was rather interesting. (Un)fortunately not recorded. However I did record the the performances on Rentgen, so that might serve as a glimpse into a release (or double or multiple) of this kind of music - stuff done for stage, reworked, remixed, focused on sonics and non-narative noise. Working titles: 'The Luminous Darkness' (via Jon Fosse), Declarations (via J. Tannahill)...

Listen/watch the performance at vid.pretok.tv:
- Kamizdat Rentgen TV: prince lucija (11/JUN/2026, Stara mestna elektrarna, Ljubljana)
My work in Malta reached a major milestone with the Performing Heritage project. Last week we executed an experimental performance in front of Ġgantija temple (interestingly enough Heritage Malta does not use the word temple anymore, it is replaced by either 'Prehistoric Complex' or 'Megalithic Site') using five VR headsets (HTC Vive Focus), environment custom made in Godot and 3D blender, with comissioned songs and some sonic atmospheres by myself. We also streamed it over our (Emanat) owncast but there was a technical failure with getting audio into the stream, so the stream wasn't very representative. This was a team effort by five people and I consider it a great success although / as it was a creation of a prototype. Of course there's million things to polish and improve until the next experiment in October and I hope to be more active to be able to manage a realistic timeline with achievable goals so in the end everyone is more or less happy with their work.
Two weeks ago, just before leaving to Malta for five days there was also a travel to Skopje for three days with our Technoburlesque: Image Snatchers show (received with relatively full house and standing ovation) at Skopje Pride Weekend 2026 (thanks to great people at Coalition MARGINS .mk). This was first longer period of time (a week) that I was away from my caretaking duties since January when things worsened. After the hip operation the ability to walk is better and better to a degree where daily mobility includes going to a nearby shop or a café. Somehow the cognitive abilities are are slightly better and that makes me worry less. At the same time I've been hard at work with my own dealing with emotions and am coming up with better understanding and standing of my own wishes and therefore abilities to carve out and demand space where I can regain energy, passion, selfcare...
A week ago I received an email with invitation to play warmup live for a seriously major act (in my world), which made me first drop everything, then think hard about how i want to develop my live performance (audio visual?) further. I want to combine different efforts and projects into this one, I really have desire to make it good. I'm very grateful for this invitation, and it's also very much fediverse's fault. It's almost like a little proof that even if you are off all meta and corpo social/audio networks, you can land (be hit by!) a big time gig. Nuff said for now.
This weekend myself and my partner managed to make a quick run for croatian island for some sea-salt, reading, zero time. We landed on small no-cars-allowed Zlarin in front of Šibenik which is not too unlike island of Silba, but perhaps much cuter.

PS: I started to write this (another completely out of bounds 'quasy-weeknote') one week earlier, on Monday, 22. Jun, 2026)

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sonomu club 7 anniv

2026-04-06T21:15:00+02:00

sonomu.club #7 year anniversary

"Creation Date: 2019-04-06T13:38:37"

Today marks sonomu.club 7th birthday. I really wanted to celebrate this anniversary with a long online live stream, but I'm simply out of spoons to produce anything or organize and invite others. All I can muster is this write-up.

some history

I've mentioned here and there how Sonomu.Club started, but I don't think I really wrote the little history of it properly.

First let me acknowledge the name more properly. I came over SoNoMu.NET website when I was studying in London circa 2002 and came in contact with various iniciatives pertaining to music and new media, like for example Dorkbot, Deck Space turned Back Space, Plug'n'Play at Public Life, and similar. This is one thing I remember from London that is possibly the best thing about this petri-dish of cultures: it's packed with scenes, events, approaches, communities, etc. There's also quite a dark side to it right there next to all these radical underground things, but I digress. The website sonomu.net was one of early 'platforms', a hub for labels, events and artists in UK underground music culture and was created by "State 51 Conspiracy" (who are still going strong). The snapshots at web archive should give a bit of sense about it, but the header of the site said: "sonomu - sound noise music - is a community, a tool, a network and a resource for the new independent music fan. discover, disseminate and discuss new music - your own or other people's."

I've discovered mastodon via instance called witches.town. After being (having account) on identi.ca, quitter.se (who had "we care about social justice"), and diaspora, w.t struck me as a online social space unappologetic about 'social justice warriors' and actually delivering content which was extremely community-care oriented - queer magic, mental health, and almost none of the tech-bro-ish shitposting. After having my mind blown understanding how fediverse actually works and how diverse it is (or at least has potential to be) in the social AND software sense, I soon created toot.si as a Slovenian instance.

But after a year of very little results in getting things going for this local (non-)scene, I just setup sonomu.club as a non-ambition: while it has clear concept it's mainly for me, and maybe a friend or two, it's for global sound-makers, producers, music-wranglers, noise enthusiasts, etc, but no growth was planned.

I was inspired by degrowth, and number of small fediverse instances that purposefuly rejected the idea to grow for any price. The idea was if we end up being three people finding it useful, that's fine. Registrations were closed from very beginning, and if anyone knows why they want to be on sonomu.club and not on any other mastodon instance, they should write me an email and let's talk a bit and then I sent an invite link.

This approach proved to be crucial for extremely high signal-to-noise ratio. Seven years after, there's about 50/50 ratio between inactive and active accounts. https://fedidb.com/servers/sonomu.club shows 79 montly active users out of 153 total accounts. To be honest, it's one of very few if not the only digital community that I was part of from inception that is successful in this sense of providing space and having a life.

and present

So, looking back, I learned a lot in these seven years of admin and moderating a mastodon instance like that (btw: it is on SaaS masto.host, so I'm not actually doing any low level system administration - we are paying Hugo for that, but admin means all the content that pertains to what the instance is about, code of conduct, inviting new moderators, etc).

Moderation: while there are few helping hands, there's hardly an pro-active moderation team to speak of. We had one or two very obvious user suspensions to make during the years, and about four or five angry self-suspensions. I maintain the blocklists and there's a few of us who respond to spam reports.

I also learned I'm not really cut for proper moderation. With 80 active users I can manage though, but more?... nah. Few instances where I had to be in this moderating position to decide what was right or wrong it was really really stressful.

Expenses continue to grow and I try to have LiberaPay page reflect that. See https://liberapay.com/SoNoMu.club/

I'm really proud of all users of sonomu.club. It's a privilege to be able to offer a safe(r) space to music-makers and such to have a social landscape that includes good moderation tools, keeps bigots away, and is completely without ads and algorythms, more or less owned by the people themselves. I'd love it to be closer to cooperation governance, or at least that more people would have the keys to the door in case of bus factor, so maybe we can move closer to that in next few years.

There are couple of things that really bother me with Mastodon as a software for fediverse instances:

local-only posts are not enabled on vanilla mastodon, so not available to customers of masto.host (please vote on this issue here)
max length of posts are similarly not available through admin web interface, so no-go for masto.host customers (see this issue)
as biggest fediverse player, mastodon and especially its founder (BDFL) showed no self-reflection of its power. thankfuly they at least kept to staying fully open source and keeping the bar just high enough to be clear about bigots, but their flagship instance, mastodon.social, is known for ineffective moderation but they keep trying to grow it by directing new users of official mastodon app to mastodon.social.

Since Eugen Rochko stepped down recently, perhaps changes are coming - i would really like to see local-only posts, this way sonomuans could actually work on some community projects together. Because of the above I really wanted to try a similar but different fediverse software, so I experimentaly setup a GoToSocial instance for myself, and after a while felt it's really working for me, so I kept being active. GTS has queer sources, and while development is slow, and it doesn't even have its own web front-end/client, they are implementing some really interesting features directed at fine-grained moderation, and frictionless blocklisting for example (subscriptions to blocklists). It is less polished, and compatibility with other software (peertube, gancio...) is not without bugs, but I feel fine with it. I'm mentioning this because I was wondering if anyone is wondering if I'm putting sonomu.club aside. No. That is not the case. I love SonomuClub and I intend to keep running it as long as possible.

in conclusion

I want to conclude this with first expressing sadness about few users of sonomu.club who left the instance in this past year or so with some degree of animosity. One of them is very dear to my heart and I still don't quite understand what ~~did I do wrong that they got mad at me~~ happened there and rage-quit. Another two cases were also angry quittings and despite what some people may think, I'm always deeply hurt when others get hurt (which probably makes me unfit for moderator's job) - perhaps sometimes it is just unavoidable (disagreement on rules, or seeing I mistreated you), but I'm very truly sorry.

Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.

—Lewis B. Smedes

So, ... I'm looking into the past, and future, with the need for humanity, and I feel this instance is here the way it is here also because of that (and pertinent on state of things regarding certain stochastic parrots): our shared humanity. We people, and our relationships, are messy, but real. Here's to another year of Sonomu.Club!

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weeknote 26.01

2026-03-15T17:07:30+01:00

weeknote #26.01

Sunday, 15. March, 2026

After a long hiatus managed to write an update to the membership project 'The Backstairs Tone'. I'm trying to be as undramatic about this pause as possible (last letter was in October). (As those who are members know) I wrote about something I'm proud of - electronic music arrangement for Purcell's Dido's Lament aria. I was able to share "just" the live recording from the show from December. I hope one day I get in the studio together with Irena Preda and make a proper recording and—most importantly—mix.
Participated in the second (of eight) workshop day about dementia. It's actually quite incredible how these are all free. Association (called 'Spominčica') that is providing education and counceling for people with Alzheimer's and dementia and their caretakers and family is quite amazing - kind, caring, with plenty of useful information and resources. And it's all part of public health-care system as well as supported by government and city funding. Sometimes I feel like we are not leaving in such bad place.
Having written that above - next Sunday are the elections and the hard-right are leading in the polls. I watched one or two debates and I like what I'm seeing from centre-left, especially 'the new left' (not the 'old' social democrats, but rather the democratic socialists), they have my full support. Meanwhile it's a bit shocking how much lies and outright stupidity are the right prepared to spew around. One of the highlights is that Grok predicted the day of US attack on Iran when asked by one of the politicians.
I point-and-click-installed a matrix server, and matrix clients Element and Cinny on my YUNOHOST server. The server is not the official Synapse one but a different implementation called Conduit. Synapse supposedly needs a lot of resources on server while Conduit is much more mindful about it. It's missing a few features but so far it's been quite a joy to use it. Currently I use Cinny on desktop/browser, and Fluffy Chat on Android phone. I also installed my own version of Phanpy, a web fediverse client with number of great features (if only some of the Moshidon features would find their way to Phanpy, it would be pretty awesome). Phanpy complements my own little GoToSocial instance on this same server.
This week I've been setting up a small workshop that is one of few that are not for beginners. It's for more experiences FLINTA music-makers who'd like to hear about my practice of creating music for Technoburlesque and then we can work on-site together with the collective The Feminalz and maybe come up with some interesting tracks. Maybe they'll get included in the show, or on this year's Access Frame compilation. I wanted to also include two "film nights", essentially collective watching and at the end settled for two films that I feel are rather interesting in the light of "Image Snatchers" where a lot of sampling and appropriation is happening: "Everything is a Remix" and Adam Neely's "The Grotesque Legacy of Music as Property". We might not actually do these screenings, but I think if anything, today's producer of electronic, sampled music that is released online really needs to watch these two.
I had a third Strudel FLINTA workshop, and it was quite strange, to be honest. It was six of us, which is a fine number, but in some way, no discussion turned up after I explained number of features, we went through the language,... perhaps it was that I didn't give 15 minutes of play for everyone, because everyone were not beginners, so it was a strange dissonance of intentions and needs and I have very little idea how this happened and how to avoid it. It was somewhat exhausting. And I don't know what, and if, I'm doing wrong. Or did. If I did. I don't have the next date yet. Will I let it drop? Perhaps it was the new moon. Or...? It has left me with this weird feeling that I should stop investing so much (most?) of my energy into community building and informal education like that and rather commit to solo AV performance as the top-most priority. I feel like composition-production and performing music (and live video) gives me so much back I could go without eating for days (hm interesting possible weight-loss method?).

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parenting a heartache

2026-01-31T15:04:29+01:00

parenting a heartache

It's the end of January 2026. I want to write a short note about an interesting revelation I experienced in the midst of some hard time - mentally, emotionally, and perhaps it can be beneficial to some of the readers here.

This month was harder than December of 2025 - which was already too much (I might write about December in next post). Much less in terms of work, much more in terms of emotional rollercoaster. In short, one of my parents has started to manifest clear signs of dementia. I consider myself somewhere close to their caretaker.

It started right after NYE, on first day of this month. They didn't know where they were ("Is this my home? Who brought me here?") or what day it is. After some sleep things improved, but during next days, it was fluctuating, and it was never like before - short term memory loss, confusion about time and place. Then a day or two of clearer understanding, but in sum, it is relatively slowly progressing to the worse. I have an working studio in the same appartment - a move from few years ago, anticipating slow worsening of their health, as their only child present in this city feeling responsible to be the one who takes care and looks after them.

What I felt was a strong heartache, just incredibly intense pain in my chest, as I was faced with their condition, their disorientation, forgetting. I sought help at local organization that deals with Alzheimer's and dementia patients and their carrers. An NGO providing free support, one-to-one meetings, self-help support group meetings, advice from experiences, empathetic staff. All free, funded via taxpayers' money. I visited my old therapy advisor and setup more visits (private). My partner helps as much as she can, and my brother, far away in land of the "free", is showing all the support he can, appreciating my updates, considering coming soon for a visit, giving advice, gentle advice. My boss at my job extremely considerate, defering travels and reorganizing work to accomodate my new situation. But, heartache was eating me. At some point I felt such strong feeling that I could describe it as this is a "state of shock that's tucked just under the surface of consciousness".

I had to do do a 4 day workshop abroad, and during that time (perhaps also because of this physical distance) as I was reading about how to mentaly survive progression of dementia of your parent, something came up. I read about change of the parent's behaviour and sense of loss and something clicked. It was the idea of grief.

I realized that what I was feeling so intensely I could only describe as heartache but couldn't really say why exactly until now. While it is kinda obvious why I'm feeling in pain in general sense ("your parent has dementia, loosing their memory and ability to be autonomous, that's why"), I was anyway confused, in the sense I didn't know how to deal with it, deal with pain and this heartache. It was just this huge amorphous blob in my chest without a clear name. And now it had a name, an explanation in its full complexity but also clarity: grief. I'm grieving my parent the way it used to be. Despite all imperfections, I had an image of strength, of fall-back, always available help, if something goes wrong. A history of them pulling me up, caring in one way or another, providing. Being there. Anything you need.

And now... this whole complex is gone. This is the loss of that sense which is more or less subconscious: for decades my parent was there for me, always offering help financialy, emotionally (imperfectly but still), rationally, always welcome, often I came before their own needs (not the best either, but still). A clearly directed care and love. An image of a safety net, since birth. And seeing them incapable of autonomous life, mentally lost, forgetting places, people, time, and being faced with this state provoked an intense sense of shock in me - it's obvious now - perhaps that's first stage of grief.

Understanding that I'm now grieving my parent the way they were, as they are not anymore (and they are still here, needing my care, needing my love, as tender as possible), created a channel where pain, this heartache, was able to flow into - not necessarily going away. It seems more manageable to persist with it, to allow, to give in to heartache, because it has been named, almost like diagnosis that can be now treated. This feeling, grief, is a natural process about which we know a lot - intuitively and scientifically. But most importantly, for me, now, suddenly this process of grieving the parent that has changed their "form", is graspable, visible, addressable, and... valid. Perhaps I'm in for another meltdown of mine when I'll see them tomorrow, as distance of working abroad created much needed space to process emotions, but perhaps I have better emotional understanding of what is going on with me.

Perhaps, I can now parent (as imperfectly as is) my own heartache.

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on time

2025-10-18T18:36:39+02:00

on time

I was thinking today about how I need to have a clearer picture and organize my online writing and communication. For example when and how to write blog posts, newsletters etc. So here it goes:

Blogposts

They are entries directly under the prin.lu/log and also appear in the atom/rss feed. I wanted to keep it simple and write mostly weeknotes. They are simple collections of short paragraphs without any connection, just fragments from the week (see Paul Battley's po-ru.com for great example). I feel it's a lovely form though some people don't like it. But then sometimes I'd write a more coherent single-topic post (like this one). Regardless, I feel I should write at least one per week if not more.

The Backstairs Tone

This is a membership -paid subscription- project which is concieved as a weekly letter to subscribers about 'behind the scenes'. I don't manage to write it every week, but in terma of scheduling it clashes a little bit with weeknotes.

Irregular Broadcast

A less-than-monthly free news about my work and upcoming events. In reality it's actually more like a yearly update and it's a shame as it has quite a lot of subscribers. But I would be happy if I'd manage to write it by the end of each month.

Fediverse & microblogging

Currently my most active social networks "presence" is at my little GoToSocial instance at 0x.trans.fail. I'm really enjoying it, using other third party clients - currently mainly Moshidon on Android phone, and Masto-Fe in browser. Both have some shortcomings but are open source and very much alive (actually I managed to submit a tiny improvement to masto-fe recently - quite proud of it). The reason for this post is exactly a pinned post on 0x.trans.fail where I have 'all gigs in 2025', which I edited today to reflect state of things in next few months. While I was editing it I thought it would be better to start with a post in January with gigs in January and then make replies to that post every first in the month.

Time-chaos & order

All this is actually seeking order in time-chaos which frustrates us. It's tied to the idea that when you commit to something that you will do at some point in the future and then fail that commitment you feel bad and ashamed of your failure and breaking your own word. This is a deep topic that is very much connected to western, capitalist notion of time and work ethic where time is a commodity. Which reminds me of a video I recently saw about a very different conception of time in African societies where time actually moves backwards instead of forwards and people 'produce' time. Look for John Mbiti. (I got this video below on insta account of Lisa Mumbi Macharia @mumbipoetry - there's more about conception of time in Africa). To be precise, and more reflexive here, when I make a plan, a structured future how will I do things and achieve realizations of commitments, I feel safer, this projected order in the future gives me an assurance, some kind of an image of success in a challenge where 'wasting' or 'loosing' time constitutes a failure with damaging consequences. I can only faintly imagine what would imply a switch to the concept of 'producing' time instead of wasting it. This will stay in my mind for a while, I'm sure.

But to wrap this post: I just wish I would anyway be able to be more regular in my communication and writings here, and above self-suggestion of a schedule perhaps serves me as a way to move in that direction.

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